My advice to you: write down the details of every thought/action/event, take millions of pictures, record hours of video, and do this everyday.
Yep. I definitely went crazy this year. Like, no joke.
Whatever your life is, just keep it simple. Be happy, healthy (physically and definitely mentally), do right by yourself and other people. Simple.
To mirror whatever I wrote on my twitter, I learned a lot of things this year, things about myself, how I handle relationships (romantic, platonic, familial), and life in general. I wrote a lot of them down. I kept a lot of them to myself, let them permeate in my thoughts, wrote them on paper, journals, napkins. Definitely had a lot of time to myself to think. It was both good and bad. But it really does all boil down to this: happiness exists in the moment that is here and now. There’s a lot more soul-searching and supplemental thoughts/self-realizations that play into that (most of which I’ve had to learn the hard way), but I’ll just keep it simple and not theorize the fuck out of it.
I’m gonna see if I could start over with everything, starting at square 1 again.
(I should get a tattoo to symbolize this period in my life, huh? No, never mind. That’s dumb. I haven’t even gotten the tattoo yet and I’m already regretting it.)
Every post I’ve made private and everything I write and say to myself just sounds like it’s a prayer or letter to god now.
I’ll save being enigmatic and poetic for another time, but I’ve been in a really ill state of mental health for quite some time now. I’m not sure what happened to me, but the point is I’m here and I’m trying to get out of it. I’m trying to surround myself with good experiences, trying to stimulate my brain in hopes that it’ll trigger something, and I’m also trying to revisit the things that I remember being into. For lack of better words, it feels like someone literally took my soul. My state of mental well-being has definitely even affected my overall health, relationships, and job performance. I’m really trying to get back to the vibrant, optimistic, energetic person I used to be, the Hugh that was fascinated with everything in life and couldn’t wait to conquer the world, had dreams and aspirations and knew where he wanted to go and was willing to take the steps to get there, but I’m not quite there yet. Something slipped from my mind and I’m trying to reestablish mental connections, rediscover meaning behind things, and basically try to find that certain je ne sais quoi of the joie de virve.
I’m trying, god. I’m trying.
Until then, I’ll try remember my own and others’ words of encouragement: “Nothing is ever lost, it’s just misplaced,” “all is not lost,” and “nothing good gets away.”
So please bear with me until I can make it out of this, whatever this is. Thanks, everyone.
If Raul and I still jammed and actually gave recording a shot, I’m pretty sure the end result would be something to this effect. Sup, bruh?
On the sincere side though, I miss having my drumset. I don’t even really want turntables too much anymore. I just wanna be able to come home and jam out like these guys.
Defs listened to a lot of Incubus tonight. Good stuff, me.
There’s a video for this song? Huh. Never knew that.
But yeah, I’ll forever fux with this song, (no pun intended). I’ll also fux with badass chicks and LA artists that embrace the Latino culture of the southland. Got ‘em.
Goddamn the snarling conviction of the lead singer in this vid, too. Just damnit.
The only relevant movie today.
—You Only Live Once
The Strokes - “You Only Live Once”
Always remember that The Strokes came before that Canadian rapper.
I think more than anything lately, I’ve been wanting to hear more about people’s philosophies on life; what they need, what they want to get out of life, how they deal with hard times, what inspires them, how they remind themselves of the good, etc. I’ve been coming across different sources, both intentionally and accidentally; sometimes I find these philosophies through what friends say, through online blogs or videos, or through random encounters with people. It’s always nice to listen to what people have to say about how they view and experience life.
Feels like I’m currently at both a turning point and a standstill in which direction I want to take life, and I’m sure I need these philosophies and words more than anything at the moment, you know, just to help me get through the day; to feel rejuvenated and re-inspired again and again.
If you know me well, you’d know that I like having these organic exchanges about life. So yeah, there’s that. Maybe we can sit and brew a spell soon, ey?